Me and my ohh so lame journey.

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hey.
bet your life is waaay better than mine.
im so bloody moody,and i worry about things that im not suppose to worry,
and hell,something is really bugging me.
and there's this one huge(ok ok not so huge,,) thing that's happening(or perhaps not happening)
and it scares the hell out of me.
~~shit.~~
i need to relax a bit.
sighhh.i just can't.
unless that one particular thing is finally here,
then i guess i wont worry that much.

so you see,
im not the kind of person who really goes out,
as in out out.you know.
it's either with the family,or just some close (when i say close,it means with family's approval)
friends(girl friends i mean).
at times,(ok ok most of the time) i would complain about not given all the freedom i need,
you know,a teen would need to feel that sometimes.(though im bloody 20 years old already.)
so,basically my life includes being around my family,(all the time.not that im complaining)
my boyfriend and my girlfriends.(which i have maybe 3 or 4 or 5 but definately not more than 10, for the time being,,the close ones & who i'm regularly keeping in touch with)
i wont complain about me having them,but you see,for me,having them is enough.
i dont need whole bunch of friends who secretly hates me.
in conclusion;i just need them.

well,on the bright side,i have them,obviously,but somehow sticking with only them makes me feel im lack of confidence(trust me on this.ohh shucks now the whole world knows) and,to be honest, its making me one jealous freak.(very serious and silent one.again,now the whole world knows.not so silent anymore i guess.)

i would say i dont mind,but i do.
i would say go have fun without me,but i dont mean it.
i would say im busy when they bring me along,but instead actually im not allowed to go.
~~sigh.~~

even if i know in my heart i could trust them,
but who knows they're gonna find someone else to replace me with.
uhh ~~emo emo.~~

its not that im being uhh i dont know,
a person full of nonsense(just by thinkin that way)
but you see,once their gone,
and thats it.
im all alone.
i hate to admit that,
but its the bloody fact.
unfortunately.

note to self;
get a life.my very own.

Xo,
Miss F.
3.46pm